Digitalash
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When it rains it fucking pours... this is essentially just a rant so feel free to ignore me lol, need to get some shit off my chest though
Soo I did a ten week cycle, pct'ed for four weeks, recieved some free gear and was planning to cruise anyway so I hopped right back on... Yes I know not smart but what's done is done. Second cycle was 14 weeks test/deca. Been cruising for about 6 weeks since. Right around the end of my cycle my chronic shoulder issues became so severe I'm pretty sure I tore both my labrum at some point in my training "career". Went to the hospital and they told me not to lift until I can get an MRI because the pain was honestly some of the worst I've ever felt in my life, and had continued and gotten worse over the past few months.
No insurance so I'm getting the fucking runaround, went to the hospital and they apparently "couldn't do an MRI"?? Orthopaedic will do it but I need to wait for some paperwork to go through which could be another week or two or god knows. Even then if I do need a labrum repair that means at least SIX GODDAMN MONTHS out of the gym.....
It continues, my job is pretty physical and eating ibuprofen like candy wasn't cutting it anymore. Got a note from the hospital so I'm gonna be out until this is resolved. So I haven't gotten paid in close to two months. Back to the cruising situation. Being the fucking noob retard I am I let it go to the last minute to re-up on test. Went to place an order with raws and fucked up royally by spending the last bit of my cash on the wrong type of card, which is non refundable. So now I have money on a CC, and essentially nothing else. Will be out of test literally next week, been on for around 30 weeks not counting a brief break for pct, no hcg, 14 weeks of deca fairly recently. I fully realize I didn't plan this out well at all and jumped into something I wasn't fully prepared for, and situations just made it exponentially worse...
So yeah I guess what I'm getting at is I can't lift, can't work, and now I'm gonna try and pct while possibly getting double surgery in the near future. I'm fully expecting to lose a ton of gains and overall turn into a skinnyfat POS. What are my chances of recovering well at this point? Any advice? Unless I can get test like yesterday, with a cc no less that's my only option I guess. I'm dreading the next few weeks/months as I'm already fucking depressed as it is, and I should still have a fair amount of test in me LOL. Not looking forward to this one bit
Again I apologize for the long and essentially pointless rant, but this is stressing me out enough I feel I need to talk to some of my bros about it. And that wouldn't go over so well in real life ha
Soo I did a ten week cycle, pct'ed for four weeks, recieved some free gear and was planning to cruise anyway so I hopped right back on... Yes I know not smart but what's done is done. Second cycle was 14 weeks test/deca. Been cruising for about 6 weeks since. Right around the end of my cycle my chronic shoulder issues became so severe I'm pretty sure I tore both my labrum at some point in my training "career". Went to the hospital and they told me not to lift until I can get an MRI because the pain was honestly some of the worst I've ever felt in my life, and had continued and gotten worse over the past few months.
No insurance so I'm getting the fucking runaround, went to the hospital and they apparently "couldn't do an MRI"?? Orthopaedic will do it but I need to wait for some paperwork to go through which could be another week or two or god knows. Even then if I do need a labrum repair that means at least SIX GODDAMN MONTHS out of the gym.....
It continues, my job is pretty physical and eating ibuprofen like candy wasn't cutting it anymore. Got a note from the hospital so I'm gonna be out until this is resolved. So I haven't gotten paid in close to two months. Back to the cruising situation. Being the fucking noob retard I am I let it go to the last minute to re-up on test. Went to place an order with raws and fucked up royally by spending the last bit of my cash on the wrong type of card, which is non refundable. So now I have money on a CC, and essentially nothing else. Will be out of test literally next week, been on for around 30 weeks not counting a brief break for pct, no hcg, 14 weeks of deca fairly recently. I fully realize I didn't plan this out well at all and jumped into something I wasn't fully prepared for, and situations just made it exponentially worse...
So yeah I guess what I'm getting at is I can't lift, can't work, and now I'm gonna try and pct while possibly getting double surgery in the near future. I'm fully expecting to lose a ton of gains and overall turn into a skinnyfat POS. What are my chances of recovering well at this point? Any advice? Unless I can get test like yesterday, with a cc no less that's my only option I guess. I'm dreading the next few weeks/months as I'm already fucking depressed as it is, and I should still have a fair amount of test in me LOL. Not looking forward to this one bit
Again I apologize for the long and essentially pointless rant, but this is stressing me out enough I feel I need to talk to some of my bros about it. And that wouldn't go over so well in real life ha