hey guys...well finally got online.have off today and decided to go use the librarys comp till I'm back online next week at home.my gift's well on its way and within the next 2wks i'll finally be back on a cycle thanks to AJ and the entire Z-team,who I can't thank enuff.this last year and a half,almost,has been a complete nightmare that no one caused but myself.i won't go into extreme details but just no they aren't pretty ones.i had and enjoyed,even with lifes ups and downs,a little over 5yrs of clean time only to allow a person to take me out of character and retreated back into my own little world filled with self denial,self pity and just basically saying f-it to myself and the world.
knowing full and well what was going to happen with that first pick up I continued anyway until I realized it was too late.i tried stopping on my own since last sept with no success.they say when the pain gets great enuff is when we hit our knees an beg for help.well fellas,the pain has reached its threshold and i couldn't take anymore.it's almost ironic how AJ and I met up.both of us were reaching out to another brother in pain and found we both had a series of common interests and things took off from there.now I consider AJ as one of my closest friends that I trust in entirety and also plan on going to see him for his upcoming 1st comp.
I also need to thank the Z team and guys like aminoman for their seemingly tireless efforts in helping guys like me to get back on track.not may ppl are willing nor even wanting to lend a hand or time to ppl that've fallen as many times as I have to the lies of addiction.
once I get my body used to the gym again within the next week or so and train my body to hold down enuff meals so I can grow i'll start my cycle of test enth andup it to something a little more,using all Z's gear of course to keep the results consistent and log my progress accordingly...thanks again,rocco.