Whats up guys and gals...
shit hasnt been goin' good for me lately.
Bodybuilding is the ONLY thing that makes me happy right now.
Honestly, the only time i'm happy is in the hour or so leading up to my w.o., the actual w.o. and pump, and the few hours afterwards of pure ecstacy (you guys know the exhausted but exhilirated feeling of a great w.o., then a hot shower and a bigass meal).
Plus, as most of you bros know (that are close to me), i believe i have a serious dysmorphic complex, cuz the only time i feel "adequate" is when i have a serious pump going....
Plus,
*I'm graduating in may, with no idea of what i'm gonna do after i graduate. granted, i have a good fulltime summer job, but after that, who knows.
*The only girl i ever cared about (my ex. gf of 2.5yrs) finally started talking to me again, and like a fuckin sucker, i kinda fell back in love with her. but she's doing the same stupid shit now of why we broke up in the first place (playing hard to get, not returning calls, showing little interest.....).
*I have lost ALL my game, meaning w/other chicks. Going out with and getting so comfortable with one girl for almost 3 years, then all of a sudden being single again, i have lost any game i ever had.
I just really feel like no one understands me. Literally, the only thing to do at my school on the weekend is go to the bar, and i try not to drink that much anymore. When i'm at the bar, i feel so outta place, cuz again, i'm still kinda in love with a chick that pays me no mind, and i have lost ALL game with teh ladies.
Well, thats enough of a rant for one night.......Am i depressed?
shit hasnt been goin' good for me lately.
Bodybuilding is the ONLY thing that makes me happy right now.
Honestly, the only time i'm happy is in the hour or so leading up to my w.o., the actual w.o. and pump, and the few hours afterwards of pure ecstacy (you guys know the exhausted but exhilirated feeling of a great w.o., then a hot shower and a bigass meal).
Plus, as most of you bros know (that are close to me), i believe i have a serious dysmorphic complex, cuz the only time i feel "adequate" is when i have a serious pump going....
Plus,
*I'm graduating in may, with no idea of what i'm gonna do after i graduate. granted, i have a good fulltime summer job, but after that, who knows.
*The only girl i ever cared about (my ex. gf of 2.5yrs) finally started talking to me again, and like a fuckin sucker, i kinda fell back in love with her. but she's doing the same stupid shit now of why we broke up in the first place (playing hard to get, not returning calls, showing little interest.....).
*I have lost ALL my game, meaning w/other chicks. Going out with and getting so comfortable with one girl for almost 3 years, then all of a sudden being single again, i have lost any game i ever had.
I just really feel like no one understands me. Literally, the only thing to do at my school on the weekend is go to the bar, and i try not to drink that much anymore. When i'm at the bar, i feel so outta place, cuz again, i'm still kinda in love with a chick that pays me no mind, and i have lost ALL game with teh ladies.
Well, thats enough of a rant for one night.......Am i depressed?